Black screen

I think it was a sunny day.  I was in the car with 2 friends.  I didn't know what car it was, but it was nice and sporty.  I sat in the front passenger seat, secured with my safety belt!   The driver, a friend of mine met in University, has a history of driving a bit on the aggressive side. 

Off we went from where I lived.  She sped off the street just in front of my house, crossed an intersection, and sped her way on the same street after the car passed the intersection.  We were going faster, faster and faster...  The driver was hyper, adrenaline filled.

I still remembered that my heartbeat ramped way way up in an exponential rate.  And my heart said to myself:  "I think she's going a little too fast. but hey, I think we'll be alright."  I knew I didn't want her to go beyond and get out of hand; at the same time, I was afraid that I may hurt her feelings if I told her to halt her mindless act at the moment.  I made a compromise, and I told her jokingly "Okay, if you speed, over 20 km/hr is alright, don't go beyond..." 

Whatever I said didn't matter, I just remembered looking at the speedometer showing a relatively high speed.  She was cornering at curves.  Needless to say, the car totally got out of control.  It skidded across... spin around, around and around...  We were spinning towards a pole.  I said to myself in my mind: "Hit anything but the pole...".  Ya right, like the car will listen to my mind.  Well, it did but without the words "anything, but"...  That means "Hit the pole", and it did...  The last scene I saw in front of my eyes was hitting the pole.  Before we hit it, I remembered that I grabbed my head tightly with my arms, trying to protect the most vulnerable part of my body in anticipation of the crash.  I knew...  "This is for real, it is very serious this time..."

Eyes shut... Quiet... No pain... I couldn't feel anything except that my mind was full of darkness that was spinning around, around and around.  It felt as though I was sitting in the middle of a big sphere in total darkness, and the sphere just kept spinning and spinning...  It was spinning so fast that I felt a big force.  This force pulled my protecting arms away from my head along with my sense of security.  I was anticipating something, some kind of verdict... I was thinking "Am I dead?" The spinning sphere stopped, still completely dark, suddenly a sentence in grey was typed out on my screen of darkness. 

With the feeling of fear and helplessness, I woke up from my dream. 

Still a little doubtful, I quickly touched my face with my hand.  I felt the touch.  Thank God I am still alive.  (5:15am, March 21, Friday)